Taking A New Direction

Ladies and Gentlemen, please prepare yourself for a paradigm shift.

Something has been brewing. It is pervasive. It has been creeping into every aspect of my life. It’s a restlessness, a dissatisfaction…with my business, my home life, everything. It has also been elusive. I cannot put it into words. My business has been doing well. It is what I am good at and my clients love me. I have a loving, faithful, sexy husband. I have two great dogs, vegetables growing in my yard, a healthy and loyal family…so what’s up? This has been going on for weeks. Something just hasn’t felt quite right.

One night, as I was sitting out in the yard by the fire, with a friend and fellow intuitive, I mentioned how I was feeling. I also mentioned that I thought it had something to do with reading tarot, perhaps professionally. I also mentioned that felt a connection between trusting my intuition, reading tarot and my Celtic roots. Upon hearing this, she asked if I had my cards with me (of course I did), and if I would like to learn the Celtic Cross layout. I immediately said yes. This is the standard Celtic Cross layout:

Here are the meanings of the cards as I was taught and as I prefer, but please understand, there are dozens of ways to read this particular spread. My suggestion is to do a little research and go with the one that feels best to you.

1. The seeker, situation, or the heart of the matter
2. What crosses/covers card 1
3. Above the seeker (potential outcome)
4. Below the seeker (recent influences)
5. The distant past
6. The distant future
7. How the seeker sees themselves
8. How others see the seeker
9. Seeker’s hopes and ideals
10. Best possible outcome

In teaching me, my friend actually did my reading and it was AMAZING. The card in position 1 was The Devil. I laughed right out loud. Since my intention/question was directly regarding me doing tarot, this card was EXACTLY where I was. The pull between how I was raised as a Fundamentalist Christian vs. how I believe now (a mix of Buddhism and the universal energy of the Star Wars ideal of The Force. No I’m not kidding), putting me directly in the role of devil’s advocate if you think about it. Hysterical.

Every card turned spelled out the details of where I had been, where I was going and the choice between my two possible futures, cards 3 and 10. By the end of the reading I was dizzy with awareness and giddy in the knowledge that reading tarot truly is my future. It is the tool I want to use to channel my intuition into coaching, guiding and helping people to get from where they are, feeling stuck…into a future they love, full of choice and freedom. I could barely go to bed that night, I was so jittery with anticipation, despite our reading going well into 2 AM.

As it would happen, the next day was Memorial day, and I was meeting my aunt for breakfast on the same side of town where my favorite metaphysical store is located. My friend and I had been there a week or so earlier discussing tarot with the owner, a proclaimed witch. Her definition of the word being “wise old woman”.

She had offered my friend the opportunity to read tarot at an upcoming street fair, and my friend had decided against it. My intuition told me I should go and ask about reading at the fair. I figured if it was meant to be, and as a confirmation of my reading the night before, her shop would be open and she would have time for a chat. As it happened, that is exactly how things went. When I asked about reading at the fair, she asked me to do a reading for her so I could show off my skills.

I spent over an hour there, reading, discussing, learning, and experiencing the humanity and brilliance of a woman I had only seen from a single perspective before. The more I read, the more she let me in, and the more I felt an energetic connection between me, her and the cards. It was, in short, amazing. She told me I was very intuitive and that my reading was accurate and good, and then agreed to have me read at the fair in June. It was the second in a long line of confirmations about my recent choice.

A week or so later, I met with my health coach (another amazing and intuitive woman in my life), for dinner before our Law of Attraction Meet Up. It was an awesome meet-up, but that’s another story for another post.

Afterward, knowing of my recent quest for tarot enlightenment and encouragement, she asked if we could go for coffee and we could read each other’s cards. We spent hours reading and sharing and I was shocked to discover that I had just given her her very first tarot reading. She is an oracle and angel card reader, but has no experience with tarot. She declared it accurate and intuitive, and asked poignant questions and gave useful tips along the way. She then read my oracle cards. Stunningly accurate. Another confirmation of my choice of path.

Today I filled in at a business networking meeting for my career coach and success partner. I had done this before, without a problem. I stand and do a 30 second ad for his business, and then I get to do a 30 second ad for mine. Up until now, I had my pitch down. I knew what I did and I knew what I could offer other business owners. Today was different. After the meeting, as I networked with the other members, they all conveyed to me how unclear they were on exactly what it is that I do. How funny. That’s exactly the vibe I was putting out, and there they were, innocently mirroring it right back to me.

I did take the time to explain it to one fellow, and I got quite a different response than I expected. He didn’t balk at it. Didn’t even pause. Instead he said, “My sister does that. I should put you two in touch”.

The funny thing is, while I was waiting for the meeting to start, I used my tarot app (Tarot Sampler) on my phone to give me some guidance on how to do my ad. I drew a single card. It was the two of disks or two of pentacles, reversed. In a nutshell, it said, “Split decision. Losing the bet. Bad timing. Perplexity. Awaiting more information.” The longer explanation is pictured below, and what really struck a chord with me:

In the meeting, I chose to represent myself from the old paradigm, and amazingly (sarcasm) got no clients, no referrals, and even had people perplexed at who I am and what I do. Maybe next time I will offer myself as a tarot reader. It is, after all, who I really am.

So, as I am shifting, the blog will shift. No more of this, “this is what the web site says this card means”. From now on, I will go by intuition, and I will blog what I am learning and experiencing as I go. Much less technicality and much more intuition. I hope you enjoy. If you are learning, have comments or questions, please feel free. I am here.